I wake up every morning hoping this will be the day that Grace calls/texts and tells me she is coming home ONLY to end the day sobbing because the call never came. How long does it take for a supposedly smart superior officer to sign a piece of paper. WHAT?? They didn't teach name signing in BCT or AIT?? This feeling of someone having their hands around my throat squeezing just enough making it difficult to breath is becoming an every day occurance for me. Which in turn makes my heart beat irratically (fast/slow/skippy) - making me tired, depressed, crabby, and an emotional WRECK!! I JUST WANT MY DAUGHTER BACK!!
I imagine if these 'smart' officers we are waiting on to sign the papers would look behind them, they would see scuff marks on the floor where they have been dragging their feet for so long.
Guess I'm in for alnother long and sleepless night wondering what tomorrow will hold.
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Tammi,my oldest daughter faces another go with chemo. I am scared beyond all reasoning. There is no ideal,plan,or day that does not include my kids now. I live in another state and they have their own lives,wish I could turn back time and do things different...trust God is all I can do. becky mcadams-stephns
On my prev. post I put chemo, I meant radiation,sorry...becky mcadams-stephens
Becky - I'm not going to be one of those people who tell you that they know how you feel and what you are going through. I'm not! I've never been the parent of a sick child. I've always been the sick child. My mom and dad WOULD know how your feeling and kind of what you are going through. But I do know this - TRUSTING IN GOD IS ALL WE CAN DO!! There has been very few times in my life, that I've questioned God about why He put this illness on me. Those were VERY LOW times in my life. I've always believed that when it's my time to go - then - I go. And until then, I'm going to LIVE LIFE and squeeze every bit of juice I can out of it. And I must admit that most of the time, I don't even pray for myself, I'm more concerned with others who are ill. My Granny brought that to my attention...lol I will pray for your daughter.
As far as kids are concerned - my daughter is my life. My purpose in life is to be Grace's mom. And I thank God that I was given that opportunity, by Him, to be a mom. And since that's all my daughter really wants to do with her life, I hope God gives her that opportunity as well. There is no greater occupation in life than motherhood.
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